Thursday, January 13, 2011

Challenge ONE - Question 13

"What is the most important need you feel burdened to meet this year?"

I got tickled at my sweet friend Bethany the other day when we were talking about goals for 2011 and she blurted out something about having hers. She then said sweetly, well I have more then one, let me give them to you in order. If you know Bethany, then you could likely hear the change in the tone of her voice as she converted from shy/timid to confident/determined!

Anyways, when I went to answer this questions I felt the same way as Bethany did about goals. There is not just one answer so I will give you a list!

NEEDS:

1. To inventory those people in my life and determine the value of our relationships. Simply put, I don't intend to dispose of any relationships but to categorize the importance those people should play in my life and the life of my family.

2. To increase my own understanding of where I need to be in 20 years from now. I have already admitted that I am better at short term goals and goals that I can see in the near future. I need to determine where I believe God wants me in 20 years so that I am working towards that path.

3. I need to make a healthier life style for myself and to be an example to my children.

4. I NEED to stop and listen more often.

Not sure all these are considered "burdens" but desires. Might call for a new list based upon that word!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Challenge One - Question 12

What area of your life most needs simplifying, and what's one way that you could simplify in that area?

My work is the one place that needs simplifying. I already have a plan to simplify by recreating my "To-Do List". I use to have a very defined routine and over the last few months I have gotten away from this.

This week has been terrific in getting back on track with my plan. I can handle tons of last minute task as long as my routine task are never out of control!

Watch out work place, you have been "simplified"! Love it!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Amazing Women - Just love them!



Tonight we had a CWF officer meeting. I knew it would be a long meeting before it even started because we were tackling the annual task of setting the calendar. I will admit thought that after 4 hours of planning there is nothing I would have rather been doing tonight.

These ladies CRACK ME UP! Seriously, I almost peed my pants in laughter because of these wonderful women. From ages spanning from mid-tweenties to seventies, these women are some of the most hillarious women I get the pleasure of knowing.

Tonight, I was just reminded how fortunate I am that God has blessed me with women who encourage me and inspire me.

This year might not mean anything to anyonelse but I am LOVING the AMAZING RACE! You never know what they will come up! (Espcially Ms. Jessie)

Thank you God for each one of them and all the ways that they bless me!

CHALLENGE ONE - Question 11

"What is the most important decision that you need to make this year?"



How to get back to what I feel like is balance. How to give 100 % everywhere I commit myself to. If I can't then it is not something that I need to be doing.

The biggest decision will be letting go of the things that do not allow me ot have balance.

My "Birth"day !!!

It has been a quite a ride since January 11, 1987! On this day, 24 years ago, I was at my little church in Texas giving my life to Christ. I remember it like it was yesterday and I hope to never forget this day as long as I live!

The song that was sung was "Just As I Am" (still one of my favorite invitation hymns ever). Brother Dale was the minister who took my confession of faith on that day with such love and such a sweet spirit. He also gave me a Spiritual Survival Kit that day and it was a treasured gift. A small booklet that helped me see my salvation as a something that needed more than a one day confession but a life long journey. I remember working thru it with my mom and being so thrilled.

The day I was baptized, I was blessed to have my mom there with me. She had been a believer for many years but never had been baptized and was encouraged to share that moment with me. It is one the bonds with her that is the strongest and most meaningful to me. I so wish I had a photograph of this moment; but it is in my heart captured always.

One of the funniest things about that day was that I can still remember it was the first day that we were in the newly built sanctuary. One of the Cook boys, myself and my mom were to be the first baptized that Sunday. Brother Dale, who happen to by my best friend's dad, pinned my name to my sleeve so that he would not forget any of our names. I remember thinking how funny that was seeing how many hours that I spent over at their home for sleepovers, play dates and church activities. Several years later that became priceless to me because I took it to mean that he knew what a special moment that was and how wanted it to be just right!

I have had my moments where God and I were not seeing eye to eye (okay, I was being stubborn) but from that moment I have always felt his peace within me. I have never doubted the love He gave for me. I wish my moments of not acting as if I knew this were fewer but I thank him for the days in between where he walked alongside me and gently guided me.

Today is day that I am overjoyed! Never will I know if there is a tomorrow but because of His grace I know eternity is waiting for me.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Mixed Feelings




I am having some mixed feelings about several things right now. I can't even verbalize what they are and they may be likely insignificant but I can not not help but want to figure out why I am having mixed feelings about these things!

It likely all comes from my obsessive need for affirmation. It is clearly my love language and how I relate to things. When there is a defined answer, I can usually accept the good or the bad. It is when I do not feel that the "affirmed feeling" that I get ansy (and annoying to those who attempt to affirm these feelings - AKA Kaleb)!

Hoping my feeling of being annoyed and irritated is short lived and that the mixed feelings fade away fast.

CHALLENGE ONE - Question 10

"What single thing that you plan to do this year will matter most in ten years? In eternity?"

I have been pondering this question a lot. I have goals, I have plans; but to answer what will matter most is harder. When you view your goals while judging their long term importance then they are altered somewhat.

In ten years, I think that thing that will matter most will be if my relationship with my kids has grown deeper. I have been their mommy and taken care of them when they were young. I have hugged away boo-boos, kissed a sad face and cheered like a out-of-control football fan at a touchdown when my kids conquered simple first in their life. Now, I am TRYING to teach them responsibility, hard work, self worth and character. To me, this stage has been far harder. You go from being mommy to MOOOOOOMMMMM!

In 10 years, my kids lives will be so different. They will have made it to college, found love, likely lost love, and began to set the path towards their own future. For me, if I can make them understand during these "learning years" how much I adore them, believe in them and love them - that will matter most. (Tears are filling up in my eyes thinking that ten years is really not that far away and there are some really big things coming up in that short amount of time!)

For eternity, I guess that nothing will matter more than helping set a foundation of faith for my children, my grandchildren and great-grandchildren. All the success in the world, all the personal accomplishments will not matter if the legacy of faith is not passed down from my generation. To me, that will matter most for eternity.